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i can't figure out why i'm alive.
i know that it's the great philosophical question of the universe, but i don't know why i am bothering with existence. for one, it's a matter of suicide being too messy. i can't imagine what it would be like to clean up after someone else had killed themselves, so i don't feel like i can do that to anyone else with any fairness. however, maybe i will just start methodically cleaning, tidying and throwing stuff away. then it will be less of a mess to deal with.
but i'm at the bottom. again. as usual.
it's not like it would be any great hardship to be without me. my family might be hit hard, but that's only because they've been around me for 35 years or so.
i am going to make a list of my logins and passwords to various things so that someone can email people/log into WoW and whatnot in case i do leave this earth. mostly i'd be worried about who would take the cats.
i know that it's the great philosophical question of the universe, but i don't know why i am bothering with existence. for one, it's a matter of suicide being too messy. i can't imagine what it would be like to clean up after someone else had killed themselves, so i don't feel like i can do that to anyone else with any fairness. however, maybe i will just start methodically cleaning, tidying and throwing stuff away. then it will be less of a mess to deal with.
but i'm at the bottom. again. as usual.
it's not like it would be any great hardship to be without me. my family might be hit hard, but that's only because they've been around me for 35 years or so.
i am going to make a list of my logins and passwords to various things so that someone can email people/log into WoW and whatnot in case i do leave this earth. mostly i'd be worried about who would take the cats.